Arms behind my head staring up at the sky
Focusing through a lingering bittersweet smoke, I reach deep inside
Backing away closing in from all sides, the attack is short lived my defences overrun
And I m bleeding inside, and I m burning inside and all I gave has been for nothing

And you still mean something to me
Angered and wronged, not brave enough to move on
And you bleed something from me
I m not made of stone, I m not that strong

This painful dwelling on the past becomes addictive to me I m warmer here
My stomach is so cold I strike blades through my heart just to feel
A blackened cancer of thought infecting everything I do and everything I say
It s always been for you
And I m living for your memory blindly hoping you approve
From obsession to insanity I would kill myself for you

Down through this, I take another step
In to the madness the chaos and the horror
Sleep through this I shift through fires
In the name of your memory

Through bittersweet smoke
Arms behind my head
Sleeping alone
Imagining that you re here.