In my clouded mind i find no place of rest. My addiction has led to my condition of regret. Oblivious euphoria that brings no sense of worth. My attraction has overcome convictions. When the smoke clears i'll remember who i am. When the time comes i will leave my listless wish. Sacrifice my sanity escape my own depravity. This vicious cycle sucks me in and i want out. Absent mind loss of control escape from shame. My admission, i won't let it end like this. Although it feels like i am owned by this existence, this tradition will not embezzle my life destiny.